Reality

ive to face reality SO ive to stop blaming myself N SO i muz stop being jealous.. sounds like im jealous of some girl? nope.. im jus jealous of those who scored well for their L1R5 for prelims.. blaming myself for slacking during prelims.. well.. those wif L1R5 10 11 12 13 14 15 ppl..u ve a bright future ahead of you. WHY? well.. u r able to get into a gd jc now + ur xcellent cca grade u get to deduct FOUR marks OFF your L1R5.. FOUR!! FOUR FOUR FOUR FOUR FOUR FOUR.. i don want.. i realli don want to go srjc yjc.. i don want. i dont want. imagine stepping into a new sch.. a new sch environment with nobody u noe.. nobody at all..i hate it. i HATE it. I HATE IT. n espec a sch that u actually DISlike b4 stepping into e sch... (after a ten-min break) mayb im jus being ego here. mayb its bcoz srjc is one of e last few jcs in sin..n i cant accept going into e last few jcs.. im in a dilemma now.. no1. i realli feel like going to e 3 mth probation to TRY out. see if i like jc style.. no2. i don want to go to a new sch alone. mayb i jus need to grow up. n ive onli got till fri to decide.. (im not logging in to e website on sat.. i don want e whole moe website to jam up.. ) can somebody please tell me what to do!!!?! o ya.. i went orchard shopping for prom stuff.. walked for hrs..n accomplished nth..haha... n i watched zathura too.. "so u still think ive got gorgeous eyes?" haha n tmr is psle release date.. my sis is receiving her results tmr!!